Mentally Fucked Visually Screwed!
A while back I purchased a body fat caliper which I’ve played around with but never really used until tonight. I had my fiancee take my measurements, which I would like to share she did not want to do. Her exact words were “I don’t even know why your making me do this you have like no fat on your body.” I looked at her saying “I still have goals I’d like to reach so can you please just entertain me for like 15 minutes.” She obliges. After taking all the measurements which I made her do twice over each area just to make sure it was correct we punch the numbers in and what I got back kind of shocked me we put in everything I get back that I am 7.75% body fat (Lbs/Kgs. 16.19/7.36 of body fat. Lbs/Kgs. 192.81/87.64 of lean body mass) at a weight of 209 Lbs/94.8 Kgs. I immediately said bull shit!! She answers me with “Bull shit what?! You still look at yourself like a fat fuck don’t you” I tell her “yeah I do” and that I feel I still have ways to go, obviously she feels different. After she shared what she felt with me I looked in the mirror and honestly took a real look at myself and I realized I had some serious mental and visual issues with myself, what I’ve been obsessing of is merely just skin and I have to give that time to tighten up. I shouldn’t be so hard on myself honestly I’ve done something amazing on my own no trainer, no fad diets, no extreme health threatening changes, just hard work, drive and determination. I honestly been on this journey so long and pushed so hard that I have arrived and I couldn’t even see it and now that I do I can begin to enjoy it but still work hard in the gym and to keep eating clean and training mean. I just wanted to share this with you all since majority of you all have been some of my biggest motivators on this journey and from my heart I’d like to thank all who encouraged me you are part of this success to thank you so much! I know a lot of you don’t have the same support system I do just remember sometimes you are you own worst enemy.
